I’m sitting here in the library trying to hold my tears back so that I can keep the dam from bursting. Everyone I know knows how bad this semester has been for me. The last two weeks I have dealt with life by simply not caring and having the mentality of just trying to hang on. This finals week is strange for me. I’ve been looking forward to the end of the semester literally all semester long. I walked out of my math final unsure of what happened and how so much time, sweat and tears just ended with a simple test and me walking out.
I have no idea how my Italian final will go. At this point I have done all I can do and that is what I have to keep telling myself, I have done all that I can do. I have been so defined by having a good GPA and nothing below a B for the past few years that when I had to deal with people with low GPA’s I was almost haughty. “How on earth could someone not pass a class?” Pretty sure this is just payback from all of those times. Over and over again I’ve repeated this week “Grades don’t define you. Grades aren’t an indication of how hard you tried. You are more than your grades.” it sounds simple and easy to embrace but it isn’t.
I have no idea who/if anyone reads this blog but if you do please remember what I said, you are more than your grades. I’m slowly learning that an A isn’t the greatest lesson you can learn.
Kara F.
You are wonderful. You have given your all and that's all anyone can ask of you.
Jasmin
I found your blog a little while ago… partly because I am homesick of Kansas where I spent two years as an international nanny.
I so know what you mean with the grades! I am studying in Germany and my grades also haven't been the best and sometimes I wonder why I can't have the same amazing grades a lot of people in my studies have but grades don't define you! If you try to do your best, that is wonderful but don't let it break you!!
I hope the rest of your finals goes well!
Jasmin
theadoredlife
Jasmin, your sweet, sweet comment completely made my day! I am so honored that you have been reading my rants and venting posts. Thank you so much for your encouragement! It really does mean so so much to me and I would love to hear your stories about Kansas!